Pull the trigger

happy birthday big ngan.

too much was going on

too much is going on

ive made a terrible mistake

and ive hit a dead end

im sick , im failing, im lazy and hopeless

i push away those that love me and hold on to those that let me down.
im not depressed. im just lost, unorganised and a little bit confused.

just cause you love yourself it doesnt mean youre up yourself

just cause you hate your self it doesnt mean youre depressed.

its either self esteem or self realization that youve done something wrong.

i just need a little time alone to figure myself out,

but even a thousand years wont be enough for me to know what i want

i think ive already used that line, but im feeling it again.

yeha i must admit, i do miss how some things used to be

but im also glad some things have changed too.

if you asked me if i was happy with my life id say yes. duh

only cos im nice and i cbf with the pointles dnm that wont do anything for you or me

all it will do is leave me looking vulnerable and make you think theres something you can do to make things better

i was thinking right am i a nice guy, like genuinely ?

i dont need your opinion. i was just curious.

i liek to think i am but when i die and am judged by god, what would he say.

i dont know but i dont think i want to :s

sorry to say, but i still dont know who my real friends are.

but i hope i'll always be friends with them especially after year 12.