pavis is so rat

im tryin not to fly to high
but teh crash shouldnt be too bad
its been an okay/shit week
meaning nothing good has happened

My life is a packet of original chips
its not too bad like
it COULD be better but
at least i have a lil salt
i mean you can deal with it if your hungry but it doesnt FULLY satisfy you
but yeha i always want more

FUCK its only thurs day and my $180 pay is fucking gone
like WTFF did i spend it on??
lets see
maccas like 15 mighty angus meal and one by itself
nandos chicken wrap with perinaise 15
jabbawocks 55
loans pressie chip in 40
loans food 10
the cake 5
and fucking 20 for fucking kyles ticket which i better get back fukin :@
oh and maccas again another 10
but i had 10 bucks before my pay too so . . . .
oh yeah school food n bus tickets . . .
FUCK
15+15+55+40+10+5+20+10 = 170
fuck in two mother fucking days
fucking maccas
and fucking nandos . wasnt even that hungry
and fucking kyle fucking unorganised fuck

well at least half of it was well spent ?
hopefully

gosh, giving up on crushing has kind of made me happier
no disappointments no anger
just pure jealousy. ill deal with you later

the old me is dead and gone
but i really miss the older older me
kind of, only slightly
he was nicer, genuinely. not this forced niceness
that comes out of pity of this pride filled shell
less worries i miss that view of the world

the old me. hate that song
fuck im such a mother fucking rat
and it wasnt even worth it
i deserve a slash on the back
a good bleed is all i need

i propose a challenge
whoever can get the thanh guy to talk
like full convo stuff
i will give him/her $20
for real
i want to but the moment never comes

this has been a long enough blog
its been a pleasure typing my shit onto teh screen
my asshole hurts now
so goodnioght
and i want you to know
if you think youve got me all figured out
then you can go fuck yourself

always and forever . sure

love is a curse and the only cure is heartbreak . . .
duhuhuhuhu
forever is a lie
yeah what do i know about love
for all i know its about eating
still nothing good
but nothnig bad so im quite alright
kind of almost enjoying life now
actually . . ..nyahhh i dunno
mayeb its just coz ive been going school on time
my rooms a mess . cbf
IM SORRY ANNA
omgeee

i think i need help
if i reached my arm out
would you hold on to me and never let me go
whatever
words will always only be words
say anything you want
coz we'll never know whats really going on inside that fucked up brain of yours
HOLY FUCKING SHIT ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS LIKE A MOTEHR FUCKING RAMSHEEP FUCKKKKKKK
something just popped up out of my motehr freaking msn
MOTHER FUCKER
whatever . what the fuck ever
im okay
your okay everyone is pretending to be happy
its all good
fucking . . . . . fuck whatever

wow that was a close one
almost depressed you there but nah ill leave it for another day
goodnight for now
its okay to backstab

cause i dont think that theyd understand

oh shit
maybe things are getting better
maybe ive finally won the fight
maybe just a battle in a war ?
but a victory none the less

friends are kinda getting on my nerves
i just wanna pack my suitcase and leave
ouch i got a bruise on my right thigh
feels kinda good though
but im not gunna bitch out
i hope not
fuck it feels like an egg
not until i find a better word than bitch out

i watched GI. JOE today
quite the good one
chick is crazy hot
drooooooooools bruz
tap that shit anyday of the week

day started off FUCKING ANNOYING AN BORING
until like i had a mother then i was liek DOOF DOOF BAM BAM
i got out of my shitty mood
oh satday btw
aND yeah things started to look better after that one drink
got home quite late but mums okay so im okay

well i cbf i got work tmro i mean today
10 hours
so yeha
goodnight nd goodluck

im not angry

i just want to rip ur head open and look into your eyes as the blood runs down your cheek.
for fucking jews sakes.
all i need to do is remind myself of how much i hate you n him n her and i think ill be fine.

well i can see clearly now that the sun is down
all those stars i thought were shining
were just dreams, holograms, fakes
and ive never felt better in my life

no i lied . im actually feeling neutral
nothing is coming nothing is going
actually . . . . . i take that one back
but its still neutral. whatever
but i must say. i fucking hate you
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU
i wanna scream . lostprophets - rooftops

scream your heart out
and let me steal it away from you
open up and you leave yourself vulnerable
never again. but then again. never say never
so yeah not never.
but youve sewn yourself shut
and we dont give a shit
just get the fuck up and dance til your legs break
make me smile.
just one more time

and fuck pretending
dont give me that smiling shit
you can talk to me for a hundred years and you still
wouldnt fucking know who the fuck i am
so you can go join the fucking saddle club
and suck your horses dick

now that weve gotten that out of the way
how was your day ?
yeha you know i lie
coz i dotn give a shit mother fucker

nah now seriously now that we have built that bridge
. . . . mums angry
im careless, reckless and selfish
and yeah
it would have bothered me 3 years ago
but it isnt three years ago
so yeah whatever

i see dad , then its like wow
alright alright
i see sister , then its like omgee
okay okay
i see mum, n just look away
im sorry im sorry

but yeah
WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY
whatever makes me angry
whatever makes us shake
is everything you planned

fucking jibberish
i made a new best friend
his name is failure
always there to keep me updated with reality
fuck i hate that word
reality
whatevr
ive blogged enough goodnight
dont forget the questions we ask at night

YOU FUCKING SLUT

is blogging over yet ?

im so frgn bored

im kinda cbf party

but then hmmm

what else i got to do ?

i just hope someone out me on the guest list

or ima have to pop a cap up

someones mothers arsemole

whatever

anyways

byefor now niggareng

duhuhhuhu