its my fault.

im angry, yes what else is new.
im angry at you, im angry at him, im angry at me.
i can always find an excuse to hate somebody, to get angry, to blame someone else.
im full of excuses, and excuses are full of shit.
i dont know how to deal with my self sometimes.
i hate me, but im proud of who i am. well, most of me.
how can you be so shallow,
how can i be so shallow.
how can you be so stupid,
how can i be so judgemental.
why would you do such a thing,
why cant i just get over it.
the worst part of seeing a situation from someone elses view is that you might lose sight of your own point of argument. and you are left with a contradicting opinion that isnt as solid as you thought it was. and the worst part is realizing that the only person in the wrong, is yourself.
how selfish of me, shame on me.
theres nothing you can do, theres nothing i can do.
just get over it, but everyone is. why are you still lingering in the past? only because i can. maybe i want to start shit. maybe its all i have.
sometimes i get so angry, just a thought makes my mind ache, and head quivers.
its normal, right?
i feel like locking myself up in a cage. the total opposite of running away.
Taylor swift soothes my mood. sighhhhhhh

some things i never forget, most of the time its irrelevant.
im very forgetful when it counts though :s

when someone asks me how im doing, i honestly dont know how to answer it anymore.
i either dont remember or theres just too much to say for one question.
instead of explaining my life story, i like to go with the word "good" otherwise id be standing there trying to figure out if ive had more good time than bad or vice versa.

i still cant believe you said that to me.

how long does it take to find out who your true friends are.
im a very fortunate person, im surrounded by awsome people; nice, friendly, caring, giving, selfless, fun loving people. i love my friends.
but sometimes i feel like i never have time for anyone or anything.
i feel like im repeating myself?

2010, the best and worst year of my life. one to remember. definitely.
but one that could easily have been the best year of my life. period.
but i was preoccupied with fighting myself, and trying to be some idiot.
im probably still that idiot, but im working on it.

maybe i should give back to my friends by giving more that i take.
you people inspire me to be better, ive been walking around with my chest out and my head held high for so long i didnt see how much of a fool ive been making of myself.
i really do take my life, friends and family for granted. but i do appreciate what everyone does for me, maybe not as much as i should but i do.

i want to say never look back, but its always good to remember where you came from, but you must also remember to keep moving forward.

or just forget the world and sleep, forever.

i have nothing to complain about. but i do.

goodbye lovers and friends.
if you see me slipping, dont let me go.