fucking hell
gosh kill me now
coz if you dont the anxiety will
i dont even know if it makes sense
ima go dic anxiety BRB
okay i got it
wow this week has been so shit
i needa adjust back to going school again
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school is slower than usual
people talk less too
fkn 30 / 38 for maths test GOSHHHH DAMNIT
D+ for Eng Sac FUCKIN DAHH
i cant find an artwork for multi media . . . . umm fuck?
and bm i well i dont do shit in bm but yeah
and info is always shit as shit
well ive decided to go RAW :$
fuck i needa gather my balls
if i even have any
fuck fuck fuck
i dunno im stressing
GOSHHH FUCK
im gunna have a break down
. . . . . . . . nah im past that phase
fly now crash later
i love it
but i cant say im full yby it
coz ill always be thinking of teh consequences before i do something
so yeahhhhhhhhhh. .. .
ANYWAYS
im getting all excited inside now
i dont know if im gunna be able to control myself
but i think its anger too
because im a fucking gutless wonder . . .
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
fuck okay what have i done lately
hmmmm just alotta sleeping
and liek . . . . yeah
this blog is long enough
goodnight
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
i feel dirty and mean
i got this bad feeling inside of me
i think its guilt
but im not sure if ive really done anything wrong
maybe its all in my head
hopefully
i feel bad in a good way
im just so upmyself
its getting abit annoying
but it feels so damn good
its like doing something bad
the nerves and adrenaline clash and create
a new level of euphoria
but not as amazing . . . . .
but the point is im feelin good and guilty
and fucking confused
and all this spinning and thinking is making me mad
damn women really do drive me crazy
and its killin me
slowly
gently
am i supposed to feel this way
is this the injection before the surgery
which is supposed to imply a happy ending
but we all know they are just as real as santa
hmm today i went crew outing
surrogates
shit shit shit
gawsh
but yeah hehehehehe
fuck im so slow
and stupid
but its too late now
oh man now you got me all blushing inside
SHUT THE FUCK UP
fuck sakes
anyways where was EYE
oh yeah
i dunno im abit very shaky
and a lil scared
i dunno if i should make a promise i dunno i can keep
whats a metaphor for that ?
hmm anyways
im sick and tired of this shit
goodnight fuckers
i think its guilt
but im not sure if ive really done anything wrong
maybe its all in my head
hopefully
i feel bad in a good way
im just so upmyself
its getting abit annoying
but it feels so damn good
its like doing something bad
the nerves and adrenaline clash and create
a new level of euphoria
but not as amazing . . . . .
but the point is im feelin good and guilty
and fucking confused
and all this spinning and thinking is making me mad
damn women really do drive me crazy
and its killin me
slowly
gently
am i supposed to feel this way
is this the injection before the surgery
which is supposed to imply a happy ending
but we all know they are just as real as santa
hmm today i went crew outing
surrogates
shit shit shit
gawsh
but yeah hehehehehe
fuck im so slow
and stupid
but its too late now
oh man now you got me all blushing inside
SHUT THE FUCK UP
fuck sakes
anyways where was EYE
oh yeah
i dunno im abit very shaky
and a lil scared
i dunno if i should make a promise i dunno i can keep
whats a metaphor for that ?
hmm anyways
im sick and tired of this shit
goodnight fuckers
Saturday, October 3, 2009
a ha ha fucking ha
yeah i feel pretty fucking good
i had quite a good ass day today
i woke up showered went to brunswick then trammed to city
went halfway to kbox then decided to go maccas to cash out
saw kyle chris n linh in teh kitchen which was pretty kool
talked to tianna (y)
and saw phuong phuong thao n kristine
which was aiight
had half a snack wrap and half a apple pie and a standard mocha with
hazelnut syrup which was frgn good made by thaoo
but i only had half of that too
i felt sickish so yeah
made my way to kbox
met with thanh n jennoh n her bf n her friends
went to . . . what was it ? crown
they had thai food ther and i wanted a thai beef salad
BUT THENNN NOOOOOOOOOOOO
we jst had to leave
which was quite awkward just comnig in and then leaving
and went to wonton house or someshit
when we went in i couldnt stand my sickness
so i went to the bathroom and ejaculated out of my mouth
which felt heapssssss better
then i ordered a small wonton soup and a hot honey lemon
i only had one wonton out of three
and drank half the drink it tasted bitter after
yeah i made new friends which is a plus
i forgot ones name but i will not mention who coz just in case
BUT ANYWAYS
liek dayum
it was quite awkward coz i was liek not talking to anyone until we went to starbucks
and then i shined liek a white man in africa
the dark side of town not south africa
starbucks was fun just chillaxing
omfg jenny took my jumper :@
gosh i wonder when ill get it back
GOHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i should have went karaoke DAMNIT
oh wells
i just grabbed abeer from teh fridge
hope mum isnt too angry
coz i already opened
omgee now i feel stupid
omgee mumss gunna be liek wtf why u drinking omgee
fuck oh well
WHATEVERRRR
fuck this beer is good
anyways where were we
oh yee haha
then we went back to mc oh yeah did i mention two girls left after we left crown restaurant ?
anyways
mc
oh right befor ewe went in we got cookies from subway which i really did nto want
i had a bite and felt sick so yeeee
got a timetable for soem knt
tehn went to buy tickets for . . . . 500 days of summer i think ? or fame but i did not watch the movie coz i was waiting for kyel to finish work at 9 30 so we can go victors
we chilled at the top level for a while just sitting and talking
and i was feelin pimp
LOL sighhhhhhh
then we said our goodbyes :D
and jenny disappeared with my jumper
and then cindy p disappeared leaving me n cindee n
so we went looking for her tehn me n cn split on swanstonstarbucks
coz kyle was waiting at mc clock and cp was like towards flinders
got to kyle got on the train
fkn stopped at foots coz construction
then fkn bussed to sunshine
then fucking walked to vics house where my mum picked me up
fkn victor
tells us to go to his house and he goes to a party
but i feel bad coz he ran hoem and i couldnt stay there
i ditched kyle at vic house
and as i drove hom,e i saw vic
lucky my mum didnt see
i came home feeling full of myself
and hungry
hungry for more then what i have
you dont know what u got till its gone
they couldnt stop singing that song goshhh
but i love it anywyas
ZAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i needa know what i want
i needa know where i wanan go
if yuo stand in the middle of a crossroad for too long your gunan get hit
LOLO
i needa make a choice and stick to it
i feel like dancing
i needa party
liek party party
fucking holidays are finsihed
FUCK SAKES
peaceoutmofos
i had quite a good ass day today
i woke up showered went to brunswick then trammed to city
went halfway to kbox then decided to go maccas to cash out
saw kyle chris n linh in teh kitchen which was pretty kool
talked to tianna (y)
and saw phuong phuong thao n kristine
which was aiight
had half a snack wrap and half a apple pie and a standard mocha with
hazelnut syrup which was frgn good made by thaoo
but i only had half of that too
i felt sickish so yeah
made my way to kbox
met with thanh n jennoh n her bf n her friends
went to . . . what was it ? crown
they had thai food ther and i wanted a thai beef salad
BUT THENNN NOOOOOOOOOOOO
we jst had to leave
which was quite awkward just comnig in and then leaving
and went to wonton house or someshit
when we went in i couldnt stand my sickness
so i went to the bathroom and ejaculated out of my mouth
which felt heapssssss better
then i ordered a small wonton soup and a hot honey lemon
i only had one wonton out of three
and drank half the drink it tasted bitter after
yeah i made new friends which is a plus
i forgot ones name but i will not mention who coz just in case
BUT ANYWAYS
liek dayum
it was quite awkward coz i was liek not talking to anyone until we went to starbucks
and then i shined liek a white man in africa
the dark side of town not south africa
starbucks was fun just chillaxing
omfg jenny took my jumper :@
gosh i wonder when ill get it back
GOHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i should have went karaoke DAMNIT
oh wells
i just grabbed abeer from teh fridge
hope mum isnt too angry
coz i already opened
omgee now i feel stupid
omgee mumss gunna be liek wtf why u drinking omgee
fuck oh well
WHATEVERRRR
fuck this beer is good
anyways where were we
oh yee haha
then we went back to mc oh yeah did i mention two girls left after we left crown restaurant ?
anyways
mc
oh right befor ewe went in we got cookies from subway which i really did nto want
i had a bite and felt sick so yeeee
got a timetable for soem knt
tehn went to buy tickets for . . . . 500 days of summer i think ? or fame but i did not watch the movie coz i was waiting for kyel to finish work at 9 30 so we can go victors
we chilled at the top level for a while just sitting and talking
and i was feelin pimp
LOL sighhhhhhh
then we said our goodbyes :D
and jenny disappeared with my jumper
and then cindy p disappeared leaving me n cindee n
so we went looking for her tehn me n cn split on swanstonstarbucks
coz kyle was waiting at mc clock and cp was like towards flinders
got to kyle got on the train
fkn stopped at foots coz construction
then fkn bussed to sunshine
then fucking walked to vics house where my mum picked me up
fkn victor
tells us to go to his house and he goes to a party
but i feel bad coz he ran hoem and i couldnt stay there
i ditched kyle at vic house
and as i drove hom,e i saw vic
lucky my mum didnt see
i came home feeling full of myself
and hungry
hungry for more then what i have
you dont know what u got till its gone
they couldnt stop singing that song goshhh
but i love it anywyas
ZAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i needa know what i want
i needa know where i wanan go
if yuo stand in the middle of a crossroad for too long your gunan get hit
LOLO
i needa make a choice and stick to it
i feel like dancing
i needa party
liek party party
fucking holidays are finsihed
FUCK SAKES
peaceoutmofos
Monday, September 28, 2009
maybe we're trying to hard
Empty – the click five
Well fuckin Bao is being a douche making me look like a fucking idiot
At work for fuck sakes
The fucking managers are coming down on me like fkn Hiroshima
Fucking hell
I don’t want to talk to Bao for a while
And fuckin Kyle but that is over
He fkn cancels his fkn shift 30 mins before his supposed to start
Fuck I dunno where the fuck I’m supposed to hide my face
. . . .Fuck
Oh yes back to when I was wondering if people liked me
I was just thinking the other day like wow
It never occurred to me that I could be hated or disliked
Coz I mean I say a lot of shit and do a big shit
But I’ve always thought I was like sometimes fun and like cool
But maybe maybe
I’m annoying or outspoken maybe
Like
maybe people don’t want to hear me say yeah ur bum look big in them jeans
Even if it is true
But fuck its confusing
Almost life changing
Hmmmmmm yeah well everyone pisses me off
And if you think youre pissed at me
Then guess what ? IM MORE PISSED AT YOU
Fucker
Ill go to sleep and never come back to this treacherous world
Today work was bludge . . . . this week , week one on holidays,
I worked weds, thurs, fri, and suns
WOOOOO
SHOW ME THE MONEY BITCH
Still on the first week,
Monday i went coles to meet up with kyle, had pizza chilled at the park for ages
Then it rained . so we were liek shit . . .
Tuesday went stefs abit of catching up and a lil talking bout the changes and shit
And yeha that was my fuckin first week
How wasted
OH adn on Friday went ngans and liek yeha just kickin back liek gangSTARS which was aiight
Had choc ripple cake which was interesting i wanan make it one day
Tasted quite good , but i wont admit it
Played abit of ds with ngans bro
Like DAYUM his actually pretty good
Farrr out
Andn final destination . . . . . nyahhh
I dnt liek watching movies much
But yeha
Then went to fkn work which was quite crazy
. . . . . . . .
I need to grow some balls
I might all nighter it tonight
Goodnight honeydew
OH shit i almost forgot
i finally know how you girls felt about the whole . . .nyah
Well fuckin Bao is being a douche making me look like a fucking idiot
At work for fuck sakes
The fucking managers are coming down on me like fkn Hiroshima
Fucking hell
I don’t want to talk to Bao for a while
And fuckin Kyle but that is over
He fkn cancels his fkn shift 30 mins before his supposed to start
Fuck I dunno where the fuck I’m supposed to hide my face
. . . .Fuck
Oh yes back to when I was wondering if people liked me
I was just thinking the other day like wow
It never occurred to me that I could be hated or disliked
Coz I mean I say a lot of shit and do a big shit
But I’ve always thought I was like sometimes fun and like cool
But maybe maybe
I’m annoying or outspoken maybe
Like
maybe people don’t want to hear me say yeah ur bum look big in them jeans
Even if it is true
But fuck its confusing
Almost life changing
Hmmmmmm yeah well everyone pisses me off
And if you think youre pissed at me
Then guess what ? IM MORE PISSED AT YOU
Fucker
Ill go to sleep and never come back to this treacherous world
Today work was bludge . . . . this week , week one on holidays,
I worked weds, thurs, fri, and suns
WOOOOO
SHOW ME THE MONEY BITCH
Still on the first week,
Monday i went coles to meet up with kyle, had pizza chilled at the park for ages
Then it rained . so we were liek shit . . .
Tuesday went stefs abit of catching up and a lil talking bout the changes and shit
And yeha that was my fuckin first week
How wasted
OH adn on Friday went ngans and liek yeha just kickin back liek gangSTARS which was aiight
Had choc ripple cake which was interesting i wanan make it one day
Tasted quite good , but i wont admit it
Played abit of ds with ngans bro
Like DAYUM his actually pretty good
Farrr out
Andn final destination . . . . . nyahhh
I dnt liek watching movies much
But yeha
Then went to fkn work which was quite crazy
. . . . . . . .
I need to grow some balls
I might all nighter it tonight
Goodnight honeydew
OH shit i almost forgot
i finally know how you girls felt about the whole . . .nyah
Saturday, September 19, 2009
dont ask me to explain myself, because i cant
happy birthday steven
i respect you very alot
have fun and think
hmm where should i start?
ill talk about shine
on wedsday
that was mega shiiittttt
like fuzzman
and frgn kyle so frgn annoying lol
i used to think maria had a really good voice
but now i think ive gotten too used to her
:\ its alll gooood
thurs had work which was . . . . nyahhh whatever
friday had robertohs
which was . . . . unusually fun
i walked in late with S, V, C, N, A, B and P
and was liek whered evryone go ?
but the music was loud and the ppl were pumped so
it was a good night
except for little things that just . . . . yeah
where the hell did she GOOOO
im quite surprised i didnt chuck though which is a plus
and fkn that knt screaming moths gosh damnit
i fkn bruised my ankle and arms but my ankle feels the fuckedest
mmmm freee alki, kinda
and i even talked to ppl i dont normally talk to at school
so i guess that means i have to say hello more :\
but yeha i guesss its okay
i didnt properly sleep till like four i dunno why
and then i woke up early :\
like 11-12 ish i think
hmmm what else happened ?
besides michelle saroh and staycay coming . . . . .
. . . . . . . . .
yeahhhhhh anyways
fkn i gave out liek fkn 5 smokes
thats frgn 20% of a deck and a deck costs round 13 bucks
farrrr oh well they didnt seem like assholes yet '
OH LOLOL when phuong pushed that ralph/raph guy lol
shes so awsomeee
hmm yeah thats all for now
i shall now get ready to pick up A from work n go n see J
wooooooo
DUHUHUHUHUHUHU
i respect you very alot
have fun and think
hmm where should i start?
ill talk about shine
on wedsday
that was mega shiiittttt
like fuzzman
and frgn kyle so frgn annoying lol
i used to think maria had a really good voice
but now i think ive gotten too used to her
:\ its alll gooood
thurs had work which was . . . . nyahhh whatever
friday had robertohs
which was . . . . unusually fun
i walked in late with S, V, C, N, A, B and P
and was liek whered evryone go ?
but the music was loud and the ppl were pumped so
it was a good night
except for little things that just . . . . yeah
where the hell did she GOOOO
im quite surprised i didnt chuck though which is a plus
and fkn that knt screaming moths gosh damnit
i fkn bruised my ankle and arms but my ankle feels the fuckedest
mmmm freee alki, kinda
and i even talked to ppl i dont normally talk to at school
so i guess that means i have to say hello more :\
but yeha i guesss its okay
i didnt properly sleep till like four i dunno why
and then i woke up early :\
like 11-12 ish i think
hmmm what else happened ?
besides michelle saroh and staycay coming . . . . .
. . . . . . . . .
yeahhhhhh anyways
fkn i gave out liek fkn 5 smokes
thats frgn 20% of a deck and a deck costs round 13 bucks
farrrr oh well they didnt seem like assholes yet '
OH LOLOL when phuong pushed that ralph/raph guy lol
shes so awsomeee
hmm yeah thats all for now
i shall now get ready to pick up A from work n go n see J
wooooooo
DUHUHUHUHUHUHU
Sunday, September 13, 2009
maybe it best if i dont understand
once a mother fucking gain
im left looking liek the fucking stoopid idiot
fucking hell i need to push the shovel away and just jump in teh hole already
fucking hell .
i cant believe those guys were smoking up and no one noticed
but yeah what can we do anyways
fuck sakes i was right
damn you gut feeling
fuck im a gutless wonder
anyways lets talk about something fun ish
well i drove to fucking sunshine
yeah ima fucking hard kunt nigguh shit
donr fuck around with me
AND LOL i fucking pissed on truongs car door handle LOLOLOLO
on the drivers side of course
and i cock blocked tina from truong
HAHA sorry truong not tonight
NOT WHILE IM AROUND
besides that everything was just . yeha
lol i totally went 120+
im a fkn siknt
well now im tired with matsh hw to do
and busman to study for but i cant and i wont coz
i have to clean my room and sleep
fuck what was with all the beer
:\
and all the fkn guys
ratio was fkn 4:1 AND 4 beign the guys
fucks ssakes
oh well not liek it would have made a difference anyways
fucking GRAGHHHHH
fuck what the hell do i do
i feel so angry
and i can feel it stiring inside ripping up my guts while i put this fugly poker face on
i need some . . . pain killers
cbf though
fuck it im gunna clean my room now
and maybe i can sleep it off
maybe i can sleep it away
maybe everyone will go fuck themsleves
good night "friends"
have fun watching me fall to pieces
i dunno how to spell it olevua orevwa
omgee i googled it no where close
Au revoir
im left looking liek the fucking stoopid idiot
fucking hell i need to push the shovel away and just jump in teh hole already
fucking hell .
i cant believe those guys were smoking up and no one noticed
but yeah what can we do anyways
fuck sakes i was right
damn you gut feeling
fuck im a gutless wonder
anyways lets talk about something fun ish
well i drove to fucking sunshine
yeah ima fucking hard kunt nigguh shit
donr fuck around with me
AND LOL i fucking pissed on truongs car door handle LOLOLOLO
on the drivers side of course
and i cock blocked tina from truong
HAHA sorry truong not tonight
NOT WHILE IM AROUND
besides that everything was just . yeha
lol i totally went 120+
im a fkn siknt
well now im tired with matsh hw to do
and busman to study for but i cant and i wont coz
i have to clean my room and sleep
fuck what was with all the beer
:\
and all the fkn guys
ratio was fkn 4:1 AND 4 beign the guys
fucks ssakes
oh well not liek it would have made a difference anyways
fucking GRAGHHHHH
fuck what the hell do i do
i feel so angry
and i can feel it stiring inside ripping up my guts while i put this fugly poker face on
i need some . . . pain killers
cbf though
fuck it im gunna clean my room now
and maybe i can sleep it off
maybe i can sleep it away
maybe everyone will go fuck themsleves
good night "friends"
have fun watching me fall to pieces
i dunno how to spell it olevua orevwa
omgee i googled it no where close
Au revoir
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
let change take its course
okay okay okay
no stress
i think ive re-fridgeted
now that i think about it
it makes more sense
and no one would question it
coz it seems reasonable
but anyways, ineeda gym
my arms are looking skinny
im hungry, yeahh
today i had.
potato scallops, jam donut, hotdog w/cheese
then med mighty angus meal with an apple pie
yeahhh
ima go sniff out the kitchen soon
but for now lets finish this one up
lets buy happiness is good
by whoeevr . . . i dunno cbf
well read teh blog before this one its so much better
ima go now fucking goose night
no stress
i think ive re-fridgeted
now that i think about it
it makes more sense
and no one would question it
coz it seems reasonable
but anyways, ineeda gym
my arms are looking skinny
im hungry, yeahh
today i had.
potato scallops, jam donut, hotdog w/cheese
then med mighty angus meal with an apple pie
yeahhh
ima go sniff out the kitchen soon
but for now lets finish this one up
lets buy happiness is good
by whoeevr . . . i dunno cbf
well read teh blog before this one its so much better
ima go now fucking goose night
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