teach me how to cry

yeah this is an oldish post i forgot to post so yeah posting it now

im not gonna hate you
im not gunna fuck you over
im not gunna lose myself
unless i already havent didnt
fuck you go correct your face
fuck what am i doing
shame on my fucking face ayy
change is only good if we change together
but i cant figure out which one of us is still the same
i dont think i want to know
but . . . . . yeah
fuck i need someone to blame
or else ima end up hating myself
and its pretty shit
ive had enough of this hating
but its all ur fault
but

*end old post*

yeha im not very a good brother
i want to be there for my family more than anyone else
but i dont knowwwww
its like
my patience is shortest with them
and im so caught up in growing up on my own
and finding myself i . . . forget where i came from

i dunno, i want to be someone my family will be proud to say
they are related to , someone they can boast about to their friends
i mean i WANT change , but am i willing to put in teh effort ?
NOOOOOOOO SIFFF
its like feeling sorry for a hobo
but can i really be bothered reahing in to my pocket and giving money ?
do i really want to give money that i worked hard for
can i spare some change? yes
WILL i spare some change? nooo
WATTA SELFISH BASTARD

yeha i think ive used that metaphor before also

well ive outblogged myself
goodnigth and im sorry
i dont know what i can do to make it up to everyone
i dont even know if i want to make it up to you
but yeah im an asshole
know it, embrace it, feel it