running circles in my head

i have super powers . but i cant use them when im sober

mmmmmm i like that

FUCK

fuck

fuck

sssssss

im so clueless

i dunno what to do

i mean ive thought of this moment so many fucking times

over and over and fucking over again in my head

but then hey lets not get too ahead of myself

but then fuck what if im not

what if im just being stupid if i ignore this

maybe its all in my head

maybe its on your mind tooo

FUCK

this is killing me

tearing me up inside

again

okay over statement

and maybe im gonig the wrong way about this

i think the blades have turned into butterflies

fuck i miss the butterflies

fluttering around in my stomache

but fuck i dunno

am i ready to be fucked over again

who the fuck do i turn to for advice now

even if time stopped for a thousand years

i think id still be contemplating,

questioning this dilema

fuck why now

of all times

actually its pretty good timing

but i feel its too early

too late

too little too late

i dont want to be the one with the weak end of this rope

i dunno if i cant take another beating

another stab to the . . . thing

sighsighsighsighsighsigh

women, sucha a confusing and ferocious race

oh fuck im stressing i dunno what to do

im jumping out of my skin

IS IT ALL JUST IN MY HEAD

fuck what do i fucking doo

thank goodness for alcohol

i think im gunna end it with its all in my head

even though itll always be on my mind

until she gives up on me

but yeah

fuck if she gives up on me that would mean she was trying

fuck

im so fucking lost

fuck now im just blabbing

ima try sleep this off

bye

give me strength