Thursday, July 2, 2009

desperation or despair

dear diary,
im feeling abit sick today and yesterday and the day before
but thats not gunna stop me
but i was thinknig
did i piss michelle off ??
hmmmmm
regret no wonder yes
lol i cant believe i said that though
and i cannot believe how no one noticed anything LOL
maybe im always like that
but whatever
this year is quite confusing for me
but mainly because of the opposite sex
alotta highs n lows
but no real satisfaction
wait i take that back
no HIGHs just mediums and lows
but yeah it doesnt bother me too much
. . . . . . . I LIED
but yeah my fault anyways
but im way past that
or so i liek to think
"So Contagious" BY Acceptance
was watching heartbreak kid
and im like shit i can so picture myself liek that in the future
but i dont want it to be liek that
ill dread my life if it is
actually i already do dread it
does that even make sense
damnit diary sometimes i feel like your teh only one that listens to me
or maybe your just the only one i tell things to ?
or maybe your thinking of someone else
bu tit doesnt matter
as long as you pretend to be here,
i can pretend your listening
one day i will have to burn you
its not coz i want to bu ti have to
goodnight and goodbye

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